thoughts over cookies

Jason and I stayed out of the snow tonight and decided to make cookies at home. He may kill me for letting everyone know that we do cutesy things like that but I'll take my chances.(A funny side note about wanting to "kill me": Jason was a little late to work today and as he has never been later before, his coworkers were a bit concerned. They later told him they were worried that my hormones had gotten the best of me and I had actually killed him or something. funny.)

I found myself taking cookies off the pan tonight and completely zoning out in all kinds of thoughts. I wondered if it's the pregnancy hormones that makes me feel so much like a space-cadet these days or if it's just all the things on my mind?

The thoughts usually go something like this: "Nanny's cookies were crispier than these" which leads to family and friends which leads to baby names, and after saying a few to myself to try them out it somehow leads to thoughts of food which are then clouded with Halloween costume ideas which leads back to job and bills then more food which makes me ask myself if I'm getting enough fluids and sleep which then leads back to friends and family then Holidays which of course takes us right back to food. And somehow I had this entire string of thoughts in the amount of time it took me to take only 4 cookies off the pan.

The baby bump continues to make progress. It's still not protruding too much but there's definitely changes going on and it's impossible to suck in my stomach anymore. I'm actually looking forward to getting a little further along and growing past the point where strangers aren't sure if I'm pregnant or just carrying a few extra pounds. Maybe I'm paranoid but I swear the teenage boy bagging my groceries yesterday stared at my stomach and I just knew he had some "beer gut" thought run through his mind. I wanted to just lean over and matter of factly say, "I'm not fat, I'm pregnant."
When his eyes moved back up from my stomach to my face, I decided to just smile instead.

inspired by the decor

As I'm coming to terms with the fact I won't be able to decorate the nursery with all the goodies from Restoration Hardware and Pottery Barn that I've been admiring, I'm finding some good alternatives at Target. Decided to go with a White crib that coordinates with the bookcase and daybed that we already have in the room.
Then we are keeping things pretty neutral with browns and sage greens with fun patterns (dots and spirals and beaded stripes). I personally can't stand things like Disney characters and the Winnie the Pooh items. (Actually, I can put up with a little bit of the classic Winnie but... it's questionable).
The plan is to add pinks, purples, yellows, and blues later once we know if our little bean is a boy or a girl.


I like classic toys and retro chic designs or as Jason would like to say, that "Artsie Fartsie" stuff. Funny that he chooses that term when I don't think I have ever told him that was the proposed name of my art company.

In fact, when we were looking at furniture yesterday and he used the term "Artsie Fartsie" it reminded me of my old goals to open an art studio for children. So, I decided to check out the market in Colorado Springs and may start doing private art lessons.

It amazes me how much this pregnancy has refocused my life and reminded me so much of who I am as an individual and the goals that I have. Some people would think that being pregnant makes you desperate for financial stability. Being able to provide for my child is definitely a priority, but being pregnant and thinking about providing a good environment of love and happiness for my baby has only reminded me how important happiness and self-fulfillment is.

the bump

I took a picture about 2 weeks ago to show that the whole 3 month before the bump rule is a crock. Well, not a total crock as I can still manage to hide it if I need to but baby bump definitely started making it's presence known after only 6 weeks.

It's True!

We found out on September 27th with a positive test result that I (we?) am (are?) definitely preggers! I confirmed it with 5 more home tests just to be sure and then one more at the doctors office for good measure. According to my dates, I'm due the first week in June!

With lots of questions from our family and friends I thought blogging might be a good way for everyone to keep up with us and my ever growing appetite. I hope this is a good place to be honest and funny at times. I hope that anyone who takes the time to read about the excitements of our life right now, will appreciate it and feels a little part of how lucky I feel we are.